Repeating Patterns

My friend said this term recently "got to burn it out". It was so perfect. It has stayed with me. She was saying if she left her certain job she has- with a really bad dynamic and a horrible boss, she would just choose another one with the same situation. She realized she had to stay and "burn it out". I realized that's exactly what I did in my relationship. I knew it was done many months before but I couldn't just run away- Like I have in the past. I had to go THROUGH it, had to let it run its course, be patient, get strong, stay balanced, and wait for the right time. And it unfolded smoothly, responsibly, clearly The same thing happened with my job. A situation had arisen and I wanted to leave. In my younger days I would have been OUTA THERE! And even months later when I knew I was going to leave, it wasn't time yet. Things came to a head and I wanted to quit immediately. I was angry. I was justified. I paused. I didn't send the emails I wanted, I didn't react. I took deep breaths, waited and responded. Then a couple weeks later I gave my notice after I had secured a new job. It all aligned perfectly. I reflected that it was the same"result" in that I left, but had I left in my initial freak out I actually would not have come to the stage and idea of the new work I was switching to. I would have left empty, reacting and not balanced. I had to burn it out. To the bitter end. And it was calm, smooth and easy.