Monday, July 29, 2013

I Ching - by: Jane Kifer

Hahahahahaha! Yes we are studying the Iching. Amazing. I have no idea how it works as of yet, but the part I mostly connect with is, it is called "the book of changes". As I have read and done some readings, I realize this the most- I, typically seek fixed answers. What is this answer, what shall I do , when will this get better? And with most of these readings, I am dissatisfied. Mostly because there is not an absolute answer. OF COURSE, and I have come to wrap around that pretty little brain of mine, that things change. Sometimes, it is a slow, yet active patient change. Sometimes the change is a paced evolution, not less kinetic or effective, but not a finite, direct, instant answer. This is something I realized in getting back together with my boyfriend. We had a breakdown of sorts at one point. I blamed him for all the wrong parts, only to finally see all the parts that worked and the parts I also contributed to what I call the breakdown of us. In reaching out to him again, I had to believe that things could be better. It was a new understanding that people can change and grow and evolve. Of course the old fearful adage, "people don't change" tried to creep in and I said, STOP, WAIT! I sure as hell hope I have grown and changed and am making better choices for myself and my life, I would have to believe he has too. I knew I had to believe this for him as well (I saw the change in him on a core level, but I was still skeptical and stayed away) if I honestly hoped and believed that for myself. Turns out I was right. haha. We both had "changed" for the better, we went through our deepest darkest fears alone and emerged clearer with less baggage towards each other. Now in terms of the iching and any life question I have asked, the answer is always the same, in a way, Hang in there! Maybe that is just my "fortune" and lesson on this plane, but the continuous theme is ever so clear. I think I finally have started to hear it.