New Home, Old Ghosts - by: Jane Kifer

We are in our new home! Wahoo! It is beautiful, amazing and dreamy and the type of home I used to HOPE I would one day live in. As I made shifts with my stuff and understanding about myself, and studying and practicing Feng Shui, it has absolutely materialized. I did many clearings and blessings upon moving in. I picked auspicious days for new things to move the beds into the space. It's beautiful. As I situate myself in my new home, unpacking, nesting, arranging and getting life together in this new space, with a different sort of intention than I ever did before, I have noticed something. I have noticed the recessed ghosts of old parts of me lifting out of me, out of the top of me , my shoulders, my head. It is like spider webs being blown away by the wind. In my old space, no matter how much I changed, painted, got rid of and moved around, though it felt cleaner and different as I transitioned through my divorce and worked on understanding and healing old childhood wounds, there was still a sort of imprint left in deep crevasses I didn't even know I could never get to. Changing my space feels like the ultimate deep cleansing. It's beautiful. Sometimes when I have felt things leaving me as I have made transitions, I have felt so deeply sad- feeling it pass through me as it leaves, because I have lived with those parts for so long, they are a part of me, they have helped to form me, they make me who I am, BUT going through that molting process over and over, eventually leads to a new starting point. A new vantage point. A new level for allowing things in with the unwanted, useless, dead parts gone. Eventually you do make it through the muck, like the lotus flower, to bloom. That sounds so cliche, but it's true. One day the grime can and does disappear. But it takes work! and desire! Imagine if a snake carried around it's old skin forever. That makes no sense! When you feel like you are in the mud and it is dark, just think of the pink petals at the top that are about to bloom!